Lynna’s Journey (Entry #4): Forgetting Stories

Lynna’s Journey will be posted on the 2nd and 4th Wednesday of the month this summer.

Have you ever forgotten an anime?

I have. Not just the boring ones, but some that I enjoyed.

Recently, I saw a thumbnail from Akagami no Shirayukihime. Although it was from a season I hadn’t watched, it took me an embarrassingly long time to remember who those characters were, and this was despite me liking Akagami fairly well. I did eventually remember, of course, but even now, I can’t really remember precisely how the first season ended or what all the core plot points were, and even the scenes I especially like lack crispness in my mind. Maybe it’s because it was episodic, but I had expected to remember it a little bit more.

When I was a child, I was so good at remembering stories, my parents would complain to me that they really didn’t need to know every detail that had happened in that movie I had watched at a birthday party. Now, if I don’t finish a book fast enough, I have to go back and remind myself what even happened.

Is there a remedy for this? Do I even want a remedy?

After all, one thing that is nice about forgetting is that it might be more fun to re-watch. How much I wish I could get back the experience of watching Fullmetal Alchemist: Brotherhood for the first time! But unfortunately, I don’t know if I’ll ever have time to re-watch shows like Akagami, so I think I’ll have to be content knowing that I watched them, I enjoyed them, and now my partial memories are all that remain.

Sometimes, when I do get around to going over an old favorite, I don’t like it as much as I used to. I found this with a lot of my favorite childhood books. But even then, even though revisiting them was bittersweet, there was something fun about finding small details and scenes I had barely noticed before, or reminiscing about my old thoughts and opinions on certain scenes and characters.

A lot of the old anime that I first started watching were very cheesy, and I cringe a little at the thought of them, but at the same time remembering the things I used to like is like a small window that I can wave at my past self through. Although the person I used to be was somewhat embarrassing, I still don’t want to forget her.

featured illustration by ふゆ (reprinted w/permission)

Murasaki Lynna

Stories have always fascinated Lynna, whether they are told in books, anime, music, or doodles in the margins of her accounting homework. She hails from Canada, and when she isn’t busy with life or obsessing over some anime or webcomic, she is working on writing her own stories, so that she might one day unleash them upon the world.

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