Sukitte Ii na yo., Episode 02: I Think I’ll Trust Him
Sukitte Ii na yo isn’t quite my type of series. Maybe, as R86 might say, there’s a little too much kissy-face. But what I do like about it is how well it conveys it’s lead character’s emotions. It’s written on her face, through her actions, and in her thoughts and words. And maybe more than anything said in episode 2 (even more than describing a kiss as being as good as deep fried chicken – surely not more than Korean style!), it was these words that said something to me:
I can’t understand him, but I think I’ll trust him.
For many Christians, I think this is the way we felt when we first came to accept Christ.
I attend a church where the background for many parishioners is similar – they grew up in church (Korean social center = church) and accepted Christ at a young age. Thus, God has always been a part of their families, in a way. They often can’t pinpoint a conversion moment – life with Christ has just rolled along from birth to rebirth.
It’s in this context that my wife frequently comments that she and I are a bit different from that norm. She was more like the two girls picking on Asami than a good, Christian girl. And I…well, I arranged my work schedule as a collegian to avoid church, spent considerable time exploring other religions (and none at all), and even when I did start attending my current church, usually spent Saturday night at a party before getting up way too early for service.
It’s for those outside the box for which Mei’s declaration above may sound most familiar. Why? Because God can hit us like a tidal wave, knocking up into the deep blue before we know it.
Mei is clearly unable to process her feelings – she’s up and down and can’t decide how she should act toward Yamato; and yet, despite all her reservations, she can’t help but be swept away.
This is the power of Christ. The Bible portrays Him as a most interesting figure – one that is so compelling that enemies, skeptics, and seekers alike are drawn to Him. They can’t help but listen to Him, and when they do, they are typically either outraged or broken.
At the moment when I truly realized the depths of my sin, I couldn’t help but turn to the grace of God. Everything that had told me otherwise about God, Jesus, and Christianity was suddenly shelved (it would later be investigated more deeply), because of the overwhelming call of God. I couldn’t help but turn to him, as Mai couldn’t help but be moved by Yamato.
And when we’re moved by love, our hearts our changed. Mai does things completely out of character – she makes a friend, stands up for that new friend, and encourages a confession. Without even knowing it, she’s become someone different. Yamato insists that she loves him for a different reason, but I think the evidence might be in the pudding – that is, all of these changes in her life.
And in our lives, that emotionally high of falling in love with Christ can mature into something more. As a relationship moves from infatuation to something more solid, so can one’s relationship with Christ. And maybe, that quote then becomes something different:
I’ve trusted him; now, I understand.